Dear Journal...

We Are Not Alone

It’s funny. After I posted about the accident today, I felt kind of ashamed for putting my family drama out there for all to see. Like I don’t have anything better to blog about but how shitty my life seems to get every single day. Maybe that’s why I don’t blog so much anymore. Ever since my mom died, there’s just never any happiness. Everything is stressful now. My whole life is turned upside down and I’m trying to cope the best I can, but it’s not easy. I think about the time before my mom’s death, and what it was like. It was, what I had thought, a living hell. My mom was very ill. Depression. Bipolar. Her biological children were cruel, and had cost her so much pain and grief. I was the one she took it out on. Sometimes she was the greatest mom in the world, and other times she made my life miserable. But never as ailing as it is today. I would give anything to have my mom back.

Browsing Tumblr, I searched for other blogs related to family dramas and realized I am not the only one. As I read the entries, I could almost relate with the writers. Some seemed to share the same troubles, while others were just whiny know-it-all kids who hate life because they can’t skip school and stay out late without being disciplined. But whether you have serious family issues (which almost everyone does), or you like to think you have serious issues… just remember that you’re not the only one. After reading a few other blog entries about the dramas of other people’s lives’, it made me feel a little better about my situation. We are not alone, and it could always be worse… Somehow, this could be worse…